The universe has obviously been trying to teach me something this year. I clearly hadn’t been getting the message because uncontrollable obstacles kept getting in the way of my plans. Three weather cancellations of races? Getting Covid en route to a race even though I was masked on the plane the whole time? Having my menstrual cycle sync up to race week in the worst possible way? All things I cannot control. And I have resisted. Fought the water and lost time and time again. The more things went sideways the harder I fought to double down on the same path. I tried the same thing over and over again and expected a different result. I did not choose acceptance. I did not learn how to float. I have tried to use my grit, resilience and determination to power through. But I realized before Leadville 100, that I was not using these tools out of compassion for myself. I was using them out of insecurity. As mentioned in
Failure is a victory
Failure is a victory
Failure is a victory
The universe has obviously been trying to teach me something this year. I clearly hadn’t been getting the message because uncontrollable obstacles kept getting in the way of my plans. Three weather cancellations of races? Getting Covid en route to a race even though I was masked on the plane the whole time? Having my menstrual cycle sync up to race week in the worst possible way? All things I cannot control. And I have resisted. Fought the water and lost time and time again. The more things went sideways the harder I fought to double down on the same path. I tried the same thing over and over again and expected a different result. I did not choose acceptance. I did not learn how to float. I have tried to use my grit, resilience and determination to power through. But I realized before Leadville 100, that I was not using these tools out of compassion for myself. I was using them out of insecurity. As mentioned in